I think all is better now .
I don’t know if it’s because of me or because of my friends or parents that I’m much better socially and I know who I am and I don’t care of what people say about me .
Finally I’m happy with myself and now I’m trying to find THAT thing to be stronger than now.
Sometimes I wonder if I made the right things . But otherwise I wouldn’t be making the same mistakes . Am I the only one that falls in-love just with some kisses and some empty love words ? I think I deserve more than just a one-night-kiss or just a “you’re beautiful” . I don’t get the thinking of the people .
I’m very easy to fall in-love . You’ve got to say to me “This is the last time you’ll ever see me , you’re my one-night-boy”, and I’ll get it , because I can understand what it is for everyone a one-night-thing .
I don’t want this for me , or for you neither. I just want us together until the end walking hand in hand by the streets of the cold night hugging ourselves happy of the life , but I don’t have your cellphone number and I gave you mine but you didn’t text me , and you deleted your own Facebook account !
I’m really misunderstanding the situation . I’ll see you one day in some disco again , and we are going to talk seriously about things that aren’t clear .
Monday , woke up at 6:30 like every day, wondering if there were new horizons to look at. Just told a friend the reallity of asone things of the life and of me. Didn’t know how was he going to react because the things that I told him. But he was like he knew it before I told him. I think he’s hiding something from me.
And my ex-girlfriend, another lost case. Someone that me and she didn’t know, told her that truth; so scaring.
The truth is that I’m not like the others, I’m different in many ways.
I’m publishing it because I’m too much bored in this ugly school, and I’m inspired too.
This night was awesome .. We drank red wine, eat pizzas and smoked marihuana .. We spent a great time with my friends and the love of my life .. I want to repeat it , I was too close for comfort but I culdn’t do it because there was too many people and that’s why I’m afraid to do what I wish to do .. I think that sometimes I’m very scared to do things that maybe people don’t need to know. I need to know if That Person feel the way I do about it. Life is as hard as we make it , but I make it really difficult .. I don’t know what’s wrong with me haha.
I really wanna try what I haven’t tried before.
I just wanna live the life as everyone do but i can’t because it’s really difficult to keep a secret as big as mine :S and I don’t want the people to know about me .. They’ll laugh at me . That’s all that I wanted to post at the moment , I will post more things in a nearly future. Here says good bye, the journalist, Nico :)
The gods must be crazy .. Horrible film about two differents cultures . Fuck , I hate antropology u.u
